25 - 6 then 71 - 59 WTF!?

Last night we went to the IU vs. BSU game at Conseco... We had seats that were so freaking high we could see the top of the scoreboard... IU looked like they were going to blow away BSU, unfortunately they have Davis coaching so it became a much closer game.
I've been working from home for the past few days, no sense in driving all the way to Indy, when basically I have everything I need right here. For some reason at 1230 last night I got that sudden creative urge and ended up working until almost 3 this morning... So tired today... I've worked most of the afternoon, going to play some ball tonight probably. Not a ton to say really today I guess.
The snow is melting now, its like 40 outside. More to come later maybe

Congrats Jake

Last night we celebrated Jake's birthday at BW's friends and family all around. It was crazy. I think there was some football on, but Jake was much more entertaining. I lost count but I'm pretty sure he had between 8 and 10, 2 of which I bought. We had a good time. Erin and I left there and headed to her house for the night. It was foggy as crap. From what the weatherman says it's going to be like this for a while. The good news is though that the snow is going to start melting soon, so maybe I can wash my car and keep it clean. Its amazing how owning a black car can be such a curse in the winter. Salt and just road junk is so bad looking on my paint. I dunno what I ate or did or whatever but today has been a bad day. Mexican for lunch wasn't a good idea either... Hopefully tonight I'll feel better.... Anyways, better go get this stuff done...

Family sucks

Ya know so people always have to prove a point on Christmas, basically I was just cussed out by my uncle. I'm sick of it, he treats everyone in this family like a piece of crap, he thinks that he's better than everyone and that he doesn't have to show respect to anyone here. Well g-ma finally heard it all go down tonight, I'm pretty sure she's done too, and if by chance she's not, I'm leaving the house anytime that he comes over anymore, period.
I was going to post something worth reading, I'm too mad to deal with it all now, I wonder if anything is open tonight? I really need to get out of the house....

And to all a good night...

Wow, it's been freakin forever since I've even really thought about posting something here, and then I procrastinated about it, alas, I am posting now.
It's Christmas! This year is probably one of the best I've ever had. Thing swith life just seem to be going so well. Erin and I are wonderful, she never ceases to amaze me, last night we did our Christmas with her family. Absolutely amazing. First of all they do this thing where they hid gifts and you kind of go on a treasure hunt to fined them. Mine from Erin was a Claddagh ring.

The celebrated Claddagh ring, as we know it today, stands as a monument to love and friendship. The design is striking and unmistakable, two hands joined together to support a single heart, and upon it a crown. Its motto, not surprisingly, is 'let love and friendship reign'. Traditionally, the rings can be worn in three different manners, all declaring a different status in the quest for love. When worn on the right hand with the heart facing outward toward the nail, the ring signifies one whose heart is free. When the heart is facing inward, toward the knuckle of the right hand, it indicates that the heart is no longer available. And finally, if the ring is to appear upon the left hand, it traditionally means that love has been plighted. MORE HERE

It’s beautiful. There were other small gifts too of course but the ring is amazing. Erin’s parents also did the scavenger hunt type thing, except it a joint gift for me and Erin. You’ll never guess…. Matching iPods! 20GB. Absolutly freaking amazing, I love it. We went to church later, after a wonderful dinner. I am just so thankful for all they do for me, never hesistating to help me even when I don’t’ really want it.
Today I woke up and got the rest of my Christmas with my family. Yesterday I got a DVD burner from my computer, got it all hooked up and burned some Family Guy DVDs, except today I opened them for Christmas, I wasted a ton of time burning… oh well.
I don’t know what I am going to do for the rest of the day but I’m sure I will have to get dressed first. I’m going to try to blog more today, I’ve got some links to post and just general commentary on life to add.

Almost 3 weeks

It's been a while since I've written anything on here so I figure it's time to update this a bit. Everyone out there that I don’t' see on a regular basis is pretty much in the dark about what has been going on. Well First off, Thanksgiving was a good thing all the way around. Of course my family is a bit weird and decided to have the traditional Mexican dinner with Enchiladas and all the fixin's... Erin came over along with the rest of my family, at least the part of the family that actually shows up to these things. Then Erin and I headed back to here house for the traditional turkey stuff. Greg, her brother made it; it was good I must admit. I spent the night at her house and we got up at 5 to go shopping with all the crazy people... we I should say that I got up at 5 to shop, Erin just kind zombie'd around with me :)
It's weird how when you think something or someone is totally unreplaceable suddenly knew people come into your lif3e that totally make them seem unimportant. I'm not talking about Erin here actually. Some new friends are just making life much easier lately. I don’t' have to fight to keep things the way they were now, let it go we'll see what happens. I shouldn’t' be like that I realize but some people just tick me off all the time and let them do it. Now I'm done, it's my turn to be the ass about things. Anyways I guess I should get back to work. I'm going to look at a new car tonight, Chevy Cobalt. I've seen pictures and they look OK, don’t' know if I can afford it or not, but we'll see how it goes, hopefully when finals are over in 2 weeks I'll have more time to work (and blog) and therefore get a bit more money saved up. OK later on people

People urk me!

People need to learn to mind their freakin business… Seriously, stay out of my personal affairs. You are about to do something that you can’t possibly imagine the repercussions of. You will not only being ruining one friendship but you could possibly destroy something else. A long time ago on this very blog I said that no matter what you said, I had other stuff to say that is much worse, well I didn’t mean it about you, but this time I do. I know things that you think that I don’t, and other people will find out. I don’t appreciate being threatened and I don’t’ appreciate that way in which you did what you did. Now it’s my turn to threaten you. Stay out.
Ok, now that that’s out of the way let me say that the last 3 days have been some of the weirdest I’ve ever lived. First of all, I’m fiending like you wouldn’t believe right now. It’s hard, harder than I thought it would be, so far so good though… Just 7.5 more weeks to go. Erin had a good weekend. She broke/sprained/I don’t know what her ankle yesterday and now she’s on crutches. Fun. Fun. Fun. She’s also been down with the flu… that has to suck; I just hope that I don’t get it from her.
Sunday… why did I even get out of bed? First of all I got up about 1:15 in the afternoon, caught the colts game, finally got dressed at halftime and went to get my books to study a bit… watched the end of the massacre, err… game. And then tried to study some more. I don’t know what it was but pretty much all of yesterday I was in a bad mood. Finally I headed out to Peru, got some gas and food… came home and just tried to relax and find some new music to download. Productive I know. Tried to go to bed about 1130ish since I was kinda feeling tired but instead I just tossed and turned for like 4 hours basically. I would get to where I was almost asleep and then jerk awake. I hate that. Finally got to sleep, then the alarm went off and I started another day. The good news is that I don’t have CIS on Monday which means I don’t have class until 230… sleep… heh. T-day is almost here, too, that means I gotta get to work on my X-mas shopping for Erin… Got some ideas but I still have no idea really. I should really get to class….

Lazyboytv.com .... go there NOW!

Why is marijuana not legal? Why is marijuana not legal?
It's a natural plant that grows in the dirt.
Do you know what's not natural?
80 year old dudes with hard-ons. That's not natural.
But we got pills for that.
We're dedicating all our medical
resources to keeping the old guys erect,
but we're putting people in jail for
something that grows in the dirt?

You know we have more prescription drugs now.
Every commercial that comes on TV is a prescription drug ad.
I can't watch TV for four minutes

without thinking I have five serious diseases.
Like: "Do you ever wake up tired in the morning?"
Oh my god I have this, write this down. Whatever it is, I have it.
Half the time I don't even know what the commercial is. . .
people running in fields or flying kites
or swimming in the ocean.
I'm like that is the greatest disease ever. How do you get that?
That disease comes with a hot chick and a puppy.

The schools now. . . It is all about
self-esteem in the schools now.
Build the kids' self-esteem,
make them feel good about themselves.
If everybody grows up with high self-esteem, who is going to dance in
our strip clubs?
What's going to happen to our porno industry?
These women don't just grown on trees.
It takes lots of drunk dads missing dance recitals before you decide
to blow a goat on the internet for fifty bucks.
And if that disappears, where does that leave me on a Friday night
with my new high speed connection?

Masterminds are another word that comes up all the time.
You keep hearing about these terrorists masterminds that get killed in
the middle east.
Terrorists masterminds.
Mastermind is sort of a lofty
way to describe what these guys do, don't you think?
They're not masterminds.
"OK, you take bomb, right?
And you put in your backpack. And you get on bus and you blow yourself
up. Alright?"
"Why do I have to blow myself up? Why can't I just. . ."
"Who's the fucking mastermind here? Me or you?"

Americans, let's face it:
We've been a spoiled country for a long time.
Do you know what the number one health risk in America is?
Obesity. They say we're in the middle of an obesity epidemic.
An epidemic like it is polio.
Like we'll be telling our grand kids about it one day.
The Great Obesity Epidemic of 2004.
"How'd you get through it grandpa?"
"Oh, it was horrible Johnny,
there was cheesecake and pork chops everywhere."

Nobody knows why were getting fatter? Look at our lifestyle.
I'll sit at a drive thru.
I'll sit there behind fifteen other cars instead of getting up to make
the eight foot walk to the totally empty counter.
Everything is mega meal, super sized.
Want biggie fries, super sized, want to go large.
You want to have thirty burgers for a nickel
you fat mother fucker. There's room in the back. Take it!
Want a 55 gallon drum of Coke with that?
It's only three more cents.

Sometimes you have to suffer a little bit in your youth to motivate
yourself to succeed in later life.
Do you think if Bill Gates got laid in high school,
do you think there'd be a Microsoft?
Of course not.
You got to spend a long time in your own locker with your underwear
shoved up your ass before you start to think,
"You'll see. I'm going to take of the world of computers! I'll show them."

We're in one of the richest countries in the world,
but the minimum wage is lower than it was thirty five years ago.
There are homeless people everywhere.
This homeless guy asked me for money the other day.
I was about to give it to him and then
I thought he was going to use it on drugs or alcohol.
And then I thought, that's what I'm going to use it on.
Why am I judging this poor bastard.
People love to judge homeless guys. Like if you give them money
they're just going to waste it.
Well, he lives in a box, what do you want him to do?
Save it up and buy a wall unit?
Take a little run to the store for a throw rug and a CD rack?
He's homeless.
I walked behind this guy the other day.
A homeless guy asked him for money.
He looks right at the homeless guy
and says why don't you go get a job you bum.
People always say that to homeless guys like it is so easy.
This homeless guy was wearing
his underwear outside his pants.
Outside his pants.
I'm guessing his resume isn't all up to date.
I'm predicting some problems during the interview process.
I'm pretty sure even McDonalds has a
"underwear goes inside the pants" policy.
Not that they enforce it really strictly,
but technically I'm sure it is on the books.

I have witnessed a miracle tonight

I saw the northern lights tonight. It's the first time I've ever seen them in person. It was kind of eerie really. The sky was green with hints of orange and it was like the sky was in motion. Sweeping colors all over the place. I love it.
I think I’ve come to the point finally where I have to make some changes with my life. Tomorrow is a new beginning. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life, or some other cliché that means the same… I need to do this, not only for me, but for those around me who have spent so much time and effort trying to make it happen. I want it to; I just can’t seem to get the motivation to stick with it. Well here it is, I will stick with it. By January 1^st, it will be done forever. I realize that it’s going to be hard; I realize that it’s going to be really hard. I’m going to be frustrated and cranky. But I have to do it. I want to say right now I’m sorry to all of you about how cranky I’m going to be for the next few days… it’ll pass I promise. What I saw tonight made me realize that there are too many things in this world that are bigger than me that I need to pay attention to and stop paying so much attention to myself. I’m working on the plan of how to do all this exactly, but I’ve got some ideas and that’s where it all has to start.
I’ve also been mulling over another idea for about a month and I think this is probably the best time to start it. I’m going to write a novel. Shocked? I am too. The way I see it, I’ve lived a pretty weird life, maybe I should share it with people. I’m going to write bits and pieces here and there based on some facts that I remember but parts of it will also be total fiction. Haven’t you ever wondered if you were going to live happily ever after? This way I will. J I’ve got an outline started. As things progress I’ll post a link here for you all to start reading and proofreading for me.
I really need to go to bed, it’s been a very thoughtful day, I’m going to fail. I know this, but I’ve got to get right back up and try again. Here’s to the future, here’s to life.

4 posts in one day!

So I've spent most of the day today online dealing with crap. Paid some bills, man I'm broke now. Watched some football. Did some math HW, hate that crap. Finished my Excel project a week early, thank goodness. Then I spent most of the rest of that day working on this blog. It looks different but it’s still not the way that I really want it. Oh well though, I'll get to it when I can.
Tonight I might head over to Chris' to hang out, maybe watch some more football. For some reason, I just can't find anything to do today, I've just been chilling, I suppose it's nice, but still. I'm bored.
Saturday Erin and I went out Christmas shopping, I got stuff for her brother and my g-ma. Now I just have to find something for her mostly. I have no idea, so if any of you out there have nay clue and to what buy her, please leave a comment and let me know.
Friday we went to BOA in Indy. Saw Northmont play their show and then we headed out to Pan-Am Plaza to watch UMass do their thing. I don’t think Erin was really into it as much as I hoped she'd be. I think marching band is one of those things that if you're not in it, you have no idea what to think of it when you see it and really don't want to find out what it's all about. Oh well, it's cool.
This week promises to be boring really. I don't have much to work on really for school; I just know that I need to stay ahead on my Math stuff since I've got a test in there next week.
Ya know, I think profs get together to make all their tests in the same week. I have a project due and two tests all in the same day. How not fair is that? Oh well enough complaining I'm headed to go get gas, and then off to Chris'... I haven't left the house all day, gotta do something.

Buy me buy me buy me!

Hey just to get this out, before ti gets too late to start shopping. X-mas list for 2004... buy me something.

Done for now

OK so for some reason I've totally hosed my old CSS. You remember the one with the white background and blue text? Yeah, not working so well. So this is where it's going to stand for a while. I posted some new "you say I think" stuff. I have a ton of HW to get done today, if I make it, I'll post more since it's been a while.

New Layout

OK so in working on this new layout, I think I've totally hosed my blog... Comments don't work, some posts are garbled... this is going to be a long day

Are you sick of the election yet?

I am. I was just sitting here doing my math homework and realized that most of the time when I think of a Bill Clinton I totally associate it with the SNL character played by Darrell Hammond. Not the actual former President of the United States of America. *begin soap box talk*
The election process in America is becoming less and less about issues that really matter to most people and more about slandering the other candidate. I'm sick of hearing about who did what to whom and who will do what if/when they are in office. I'm not voting tomorrow, let me tell you why. First off, I didn't get my absentee ballot stuff sent in time and I won't be around tomorrow. Secondly, I just don't care any more. I realize that whoever we elect will greatly influence a lot of things that will directly affect me, but I'm sick of it. For the last year all we've heard is how people are trying to spin the news a certain way to benefit a certain candidate. I've never been out of the country, but from what I hear the news in other parts of the world is greatly different. Whatever spin is put on it here; it's not the truth probably anyways.
I dunno I'm sick of the whole democratic process, let them have at it tomorrow, I'm going to enjoy my Tuesday like any other day with a barrage of "election updates" tomorrow night.
SNL is hilarious. Tonight is the election special, this is what politics should be about. Dana Carvey plays Bush Sr. and Perot perfectly. I love it. Will Farrell does pretty good with Bush II also.
I hate the rain, it rained all day today. I miss the sun already. My sunburn is gone now and I'm done molting. I didn't go to MNF at BW's tonight cause no one else was going, instead I came home and did homework.... woo hoo I should go call Erin and get to bed soon.
Let me just sum up everything I've said with one word from the 2000 Presidential debates.... Strategery

Another day... I guess

I'm so tired right now I mean in the last like 3 days I doubt that I’ve slept 12 hours total. I'm peeling so bad right now from the sunburn that I just itch all the time which makes sleeping really hard overall. I went to bed last night and woke up over and over again, just to itch and stuff. I was tossing and turning all night and the night before actually. Today was an OK day. Nothing exciting really to speak of. Last night I got pictures from Florida and as soon as I get home or to a place with a scanner I'll post some of them. Good stuff. Erin is awesome, she put them all in a little album thingy and it’s just cool. Jake's having a bonfire on Saturday so if you're going to be around, give me or him a call and come hang out with us. Weather providing anyways. I can't wait to get home tonight, I'm going to just chill... Too much other stuff has been going on for me really to just chill for the last few days. I'm tired of doing 'stuff'.
It's weird how simple things can change everything around you, almost like a butterfly effect I guess. People or things change ever so slightly and the world turns into a mess.
Separately, I'm sick of the election. I mean really, people all over the place are debating their points of view over nothing. I mean really if I believe something and you believe something totally different you probably aren't going to change my mind that easily and especially over a coke in the school commons. Just let it go and we'll see how it all comes out in the next week or so. Depending on Florida's voting problems anyways. God, I don't think that I could deal with another 2000 again, that was ridiculous. Let’s get the election done, inaugurate someone and move on with the war, the economy and whatever else is wrong with the country.
I'm so tired, did I mention that already, because I am.
I'm ready for snow, not like blizzard snow, but like heavy Christmas Eve snow. I'm ready for those picturesque mornings when you wake up and the streets haven’t been plowed yet and everything is just so still and so perfect. Nothing beats a winter day like that. Summer days are always full of something gong on, nothing beats the ear shattering silence of a cold winter morning. Time for class.

I'm home...

It's early but it feels so late to me. I got home around 4ish today... The plane landed at 115 or so. My back and sides are so burnt it pretty much hurts to do much of anything right now. I'm glad to be back home, but at the same time when I got home I was almost ready to go back again. Life on the beach just seems so much more laid back and relaxing than living in the corn fields.
Last night Erin and I played in the surf as the tide was coming in at sunset. A perfect night. After we got dried off, we went out dinner at this place called Silas Dent's not the greatest but it was kind of a double date with her parents so it was still all good.
I'm glad to back home, in my house with my stuff, but part of me will always want to live on the beach in the sun and surf... I'm a farm boy with beach dreams...

Lobster anyone?

OK so it’s about 8 again and it's the end of day 2. I slept like a deadman... Didn't notice anything until about 930 this morning. Got up got some McD’s… then headed to the beach where Ii stayed until like 230ish… We swam, shelled, all that. Plus we got a jet ski and played around on that for a while… Good times all around.
We headed up to Tarpon Springs, nothing great to see, but still cool. Now I’m headed out the beach to walk with Erin. GW Bush is in the main hotel down the street so there are cops everywhere… its crazy around here…. Later

The End of the First Day

It's 830 here now... It's been a very long day. I got up around 430 took a shower and headed straight out the door for the airport... Everything seemed to go pretty smoothly but I just totally reaffirmed how much I hate flying. Once we got here, it was absolutely beautiful when we got off the plane. Once we got to the hotel, and of course that was cool we went over to the beach. Well I guess I should say, we went out to the beach, it's in our backyard basically. Anyways though I took off for the surf and while I was messing around with Erin and stuff in the surf... well I lost my glasses. Totally gone, we spent a bit of time looking for them but it was pretty much useless considering the surf here is crazy... Anyways though in perhaps the most amazing act of kindness I've ever seen, Ron bought me a new pair... you don't want to know what they cost and it really doesn't matter, I can see again... all is well. I guess I should get back to doing something with the fam... Later all.

Fed Up!

I've had it. I just hate when people what me to be part of their lives then for no good reason go off on me. I mean really either I'm there or not , you make the choice and get back to me on it. A conversation that is totally facetious always gets thrown around the wrong way by innocent bystanders and suddenly I'm the bad guy when I did absolutely nothing wrong at all. I'm sick of it. From now on I'm out of everyone's life but my own. Not trying to help anyone, not trying to give anyone a leg up on anything. I'll be so glad when the morning gets here... I need a vacation. Also on a totally different note... I think I'm going to try for some internships over the summer. Nothing huge and I'll probably keep my current job too, but I think I need to work on some resume building while I still have time to do it. I mean technically I'm a junior as far as class standing goes, a senior by December. I just haven't taken all the junior classes yet because I can't seem to find a way to go to school and not have a job at the same time... Anyone win the Powerball lately and want to loan a poor college kid some money? Whatever I'm going outside so I can get to history on time and blow this popstand...

It's been a week!

Well I just got done taking my fourth test of the week. MIS sucks. I think that's why I'm going to change my major actually. After taking this class I've decided that SAP just isn't' the way to go. I'll be a Management/HR major instead. I finally got in to see my advisor the other day and know I realize that I'm going to be here at least until May of '06. The last week has been cool. Matt is back in A-stan. Erin and I are still great. I worked on Saturday instead of going to Regionals, but hey at least I got paid. The other thing that I noticed on Saturday was f-ing snow. Snow! In October! Grr... I spent most of the weekend studying, or at least trying to study. Monday I went out with Jake and some guys to BW's to watch MNF. I didn't realize but BW's gives away a 27' TV every Monday after the 3rd quarter. I didn't win of course, but now I have a good reason to go. Heh. Last night I spent the better part of the evening trying to get everything ready for Florida. Man, I didn't realize how little I travel and how hard it is to find everything that you need when you really want it. Today, after history I'm going to Erin's sleeping a bit and then I'll be in FL by 930ish tomorrow. Heh. How cool is that, right now I'm sitting here in a hoodie and tomorrow at this time I'll be on a beach in shorts... gotta love it. I don’t' know what else there really is to say but I'm taking the laptop with me so I might just another entry in while I'm in.

Don't talk politics with the grandma

Or... Don't try to rock the boat in math class
Yesterday was probably one of the weirdest days that I've had in a long time. First of all when I got up I was watching the news in the living like I do just about every morning, they were talking about the Presidential Debate that's happening tonight and all that stuff. My g-ma asked me about who I was going to vote for and all of that. Now I should preface this by saying that family is a family of union-proud factory workers that has probably voted Democrat since the 70's. I told her that I think Bush would probably be my choice and proceeded to argue with her about the war for the next 15 minutes. Of course as is the case when arguing anytime with her, I lost, not because she beat me with a point but because you can't change her mind once she's made it up so it was useless to even start arguing in the first place. Either way I learned my lesson, no politics at home.
Also when I finally got to school and the prof. was talking about God-knows-what this dood.... I don't know his name and it really doesn't matter anyway, was trying to prove the prof. wrong about some mathematical point she had just made. I mean really.... She wasn't trying to prove that 1 + 1 = 5... She was proving something about probability or something. This guy, who is also in my MIS class where he is also a loudmouth know-it-all, just kept going on and on, finally the prof. was like "Look, this is how it is, take it or leave it." I mean c'mon, you're a 20-something college kid, she's a tenured prof. with a PhD in Math; I think she's got you on this one.
Anyways though after that my day just continued to get worse and worse. I went to work and got some stuff started, but then I started feeling like crap. I was tired, dizzy, hot, and cold, you name it, I had it. I left early and went to Erin's to sleep for a bit, like 2.5 hours... Woke up, ate some salad and pie crust and then just sat around until like 10… went home and went straight to bed… It was good…
Now I’m in the library just chilling, listing to some PODCasts… Basically radio-on-demand. It’s good; I’ll blog about it more later.

Not sure why I'm even writing

I guess it's because I feel an obligation to someone out there to write now and then just to keep everything up to date. I think I'm going back to the old layout though, the blue one, more space and all that junk... soon I guess.
Anyways the weekend was cool. Friday we went out with Orion and Katie... Dinner was ok I guess, but to make things worse I locked my keys in my car again! It wouldn't have been so horrible but it started to rain and the cop that was supposed to come and help me did n't see us so we had to call again. Grr... Finally got it opened, thank god for slim jims and then went straight to WalMart to get copies made for Erin to keep at home so I won't do it again hopefully...
Saturday I woke up in a bad mood. I dunno why, I got like 11 hours sleep I should have been fine. I decided that I just needed to get away. My thought was to go to Bloomington to enjoy a fall day or something. Instead though Erin and I went to Muncie and hung out with one of her friends. Went to CC down there and ran into a guy I used to work with, turns out he lives like 1/2 mile from Erin. We went out to eat and then saw Ladder 49. A really good movie actually, go see it. NOW!
Today I woke up, got some HW done and then went to BW's with Chris to cath the Colts game. Didn't see a lot of it cause we were just chilling and stuff, but it was a good game from what I saw. Came back to town tonight, watched some tube and just chilled. Sausage on the grill is great stuff. After Family Guy, Erin headed back and now I'm here... I guess that's all... I hate that this thing has turned in to more of a Dear Diary thing instead of some kind of outlet for my feelings... oh well... later

I just need five minutes!

You know today is one of those days when I had everything planned out. I was going to sit and watch a movie in the library and just chill for a while. Enjoy a wonderful afternoon and really just put the troubles of the world behind me. But what happened? Well first I ended up trying to ditch a tail like a KGB op in Washington. I swear, it was like I had a shadow and couldn’t find any place dark enough to make it go away. Aren’t the headphones a hint? Apparently not. Tonight, I’m going home. Period. Not going to do anything but hang out by myself. I feel like at times that I haven’t had five minutes to myself for a long time. I need it, I crave it. I just want a day off… A day off from life. Maybe that would fix things, I’ve probably said the same thing before I’m sure, and I’m sure that it hasn’t before… but hey it’s a shot again.
I have a ton of math HW that I should be doing right now but instead… I’m blogging and watching Schindler’s List on the computer… Works for me I guess.

Why the heck am I up this early?

It's 1130 but I've been up since like 10... It's weird. Last night was awesome though. Erin, Matt, Ali and I went to Indy for a night out on the town. We got all dressed up and headed to The Melting Pot and then after that went to Crackers in Broad Ripple. It was a good night I guess. The girls looked great, the food was awesome. One thing that wasn't as I expected was the fact that the comedian at Crackers was the exact same one I saw there last time I went. He used a lot of the same jokes actually. Oh well though, it was still fun
This weekend has gone really fast for some reason. I mean half of Sunday is already gone. I have tons of studying to today and I think after that Erin might come up or if she doesn't I'm going to start something that I should have started when I first thought of it. Who knows though, it's still early enough that I have no idea what I really want to do all day.

Why the heck am I awake at 1am?!?!

Well it goes like this... Around 11 I was getting ready to go to bed... an old friend popped up on IM... We talked and talked... finally got around to gmailing mp3s around and here I am wide awake now... grr...
The dates for Florida is final now... Oct 21 I will wake up in IN and sleep in FL.. woo hoo... I should be back by the 24th. Tomorrow is another day... or is that today is another day?... whatever... going to watch Family Guy and hit the sack way too late

He's back...

Matt came home yesterday. It was good to see that he's the same cynical guy that he was when he left. It's cool to know that no matter how far and how long your friends go away that they can still come back basically the same. I guess we might hangout tonight but who knows... He's buying clothes and junk since nothing fits him now.
I dunno, it's another boring day in the quad... at least it's cold out now and I can freeze a bit... I guess I shoudl go do something... later

Spending it like I've got it...

I went through $20 today I don't remember how. I woke up got dressed, went to class, bought a coke for $1 on the way in. Went to lunch at BK for $5, came back to school chilled til lab, bought yet another coke after lab, $1. Candy: $1.25. Took Bio test, got 94%. Went to Long John's, got chicken, more coke. $5. So that's like a total of: $13.25... Where's my other $6.75? I have no idea seriously. Secondly, I drink way too much coke when I'm at school without my water bottle and stuff... Gotta get that thing back from erin so my kidneys don't like fall out or something in the next year. Today was actually pretty good though. I mean I got a 94% on a bio test, what else could you ask for? I dunno... I'm watching MNF and supposed to be doing some math HW, but I'm totally lost for some reason, it's amazing how not understanding the terminology in a class can really hinder your efforts to study. Oh well off to the races... I have to plan the weekend that isn't' here yet...

I'm so sore...

Ok so this weekend was one of those weekends where I felt like I was at a dead run all weekend. Saturday I got up early and headed to Erin's to help her dad do some work in the woods by their house, ok it's not really a woods, more like a tree line, but that doesn't really matter. I wielded a chainsaw for like 7 hours basically and I'm definitely paying for it today. I hurt just about everywhere.... Yeah even there.
Today was a good day though, slept in finally and got some much needed HW done. Then I found out that Matt will be home on Tuesday afternoon. So I called in and took the afternoon off so that I could meet him. It's going to be an interesting 2 weeks that's for sure.
Don't you think its cool how you can be gone from somewhere for like 6 weeks, walk right back in and feel like you haven't missed a beat? I love it, just hung out and had a good time. Just like old times
I have a bio test tomorrow, a history test Wednesday, and MIS quiz probably too... grr... Stupid profs getting in the way of my plans... oh well I'll be ok I guess.... Off to bed...

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It's late

Too late to actually be up. I just can't sleep for some reason. I think there might be something wrong, this is happening more and more. The good thing is that for some reason when I'm really tired, I can type better than when I'm wide awake. I did manage to get my new router setup tonight after not being able to sleep, perhaps I should reverse my schedule and start sleeping during the day and working at night... Doubt that would actually work though. School is really hard to attend at night.
Went over to Chris' tonight, his grampa died Monday so I wanted to go see hwo he was doing. I actually met him at Mac practice first, as it ended he went out for a "staff meeting" and I decided to go over to see Terra for a bit with Orion. We ate Taco Bell and just chilled basically. The "staff meeting" turned into a trip to the Hugger, which I was invited to, but at 1130 I'm just not in the mood to drive to Kokomo to see ugly girls dance naked...
But I did get the wireless fixed, woo hoo... Now I can be incredibly lazy like I am right now and lay in bed and surf the 'net and blog. Anyways, it's going to be another long day tomorrow too... Can't wait for vacation time... I need some days of nothing to get me going again..

I'm loving life right now...

It's one of those days again where I want to be alone but it's not because I'm like mad or anything, I just want to chill for a bit. Went to Best Buy today, bought The Simpsons: Gone Wild, The Star Wars Triolgy and a new router. Now I'm chilling in the library watching an episode of The Simpsons and surfing...
Yesterday I went to work... what work it was... We poured 13 square of cement... Actually i just helped spread it around, I'm not that great with a float. But it was still a lot of work. Today I got up a bit late, made it to school on time though, went to lunch at Applebees and then headed to Best Buy....
Anyways though, just thought I should post something today since it's been a few.

The laptop

Here it is... Not too shabby

Sitting in the quad part 2...

You would have read part 1 if I hadn't been kicked offline just as I was posting it and lost it all. So this post is a rehash of the randomness from 15 minutes ago.
Bored. That's pretty much what I've been all day today. There isnt' much going on and I don't have that much to do. I'm sitting out in the quad just chillin. Playing with the laptop that Erin's dad bought me yesterday. I'm truly honored by all of them actually. They took me into their family almost immediately and made me feel more welcome than I ever have before. Good things are going to happen, I can tell.
Yesterday I went over to Erin's and we chilled in the hot tub for a bit. It was like 130 so I think my heart stopped a few times. Actually, when we got out and went in I was still sweating for like an hour or so. Not cool.
I got home at like 1230ish and tried to go straight to bed cause I wasn't feeling good from the tub. At 3 I finally got up and ate half a bag of Doritos and felt much better, and finally feel straight to sleep. After 6 hours I got up and went to class... yea...
It's one of those perfect autumn days today, the days with a light breeze and the perfect temperature. All you can hear is the rustling of the leaves and a car driving past now and then. Perfect. Almost perfect anyways... They just started up a man-lift so now instead of hearing leaves, I hear a diesel engine revving and idling... what fun.
I think I'm like vitamin deficient or something right now cause all I've been doing lately is craving fruit or something like that. Maybe I should go get some from the cafe... mmm... transfat free fruit....
Anyways I guess that's enough of this rambling.... I'm going to find a banana...

Lets go!

It's been one of those days so far today, the kind of day where I feel like all I'm doing is hurrying just to wait again. I dunno, I got a lot done on my Access Project today but other than that all I did was read and watch football. Colts won. Going to Erin's tonight, might do a run through Circuit City before that though.
Last night was the Sounds of September contest at Mac. We got there around 9ish and caught the last 3 bands and then headed over to Chris' to chill for a bit. Nothing like Friday night though. Kings is a great game to play and it's better with BBQ. I dunno, I guess I really don't feel like writing after all... later

Changes complete

I think the website stuff is taken care of now, that is everything shoudl be back to normal. I would like to take this time to also formally annouce the opening of fuzznik.com! Nothing up there yet, but I've got a few ideas. Also I have fuzznik.com email addresses available to anyone who wants one, leave a comment for more info.

We interrupt this program...

New webhost coming soon. Site might go down for a bit, but it'll be back. Now with Fuzznik!

I'm buying this...

Billy Joel wrote a children's book. I normally don't buy children's books but Billy Joel is the man and this is quite possibly one of his greatest/most underappreciated songs. It means something to some of us out there... I'm buying it.
It's not quite I Am a Manatee by John Lithgow, but it'll do. *wink* Terra

Drama in the library

I'm sitting here in the library as is always the case on Monday and Wednesday afternoons. It's cool and quiet, mostly. There is a man laying on a corner couch snoring, this man is probably one of the most annoying people I've ever seen. He's in my MIS class too, always the one who tries to relate the topic of the class to his chosen profession, healthcare. I mean I understand that this is a campus is about as varied as they come, young, old, all colors. There are people here who are straight out of high school and people here that are elderly and merely coming here because they never got the chance to go to college in their youth. This man however is freaking annoying just about everyone here... A 30-something man just got up and asked the snoring man to either stop snoring or move. Perhaps a fight will occur between two middle-aged men after class in the parking lot. He's leaving... thank goodness. Go sleep elsewhere, there are plenty of benches somewhere else on campus.
I also want to add that today is probably one of the hottest days in the last month or so. Weatherbug only says it's 84, and the humidity is 40% but still it wasn't this hot back in July when summer is supposed to be horridly hot. I dunno, maybe I'm bitter because I wore jeans instead of shorts... who knows. Off to make some phone calls and chill off-line for a bit....

The weekend is over...

Mostly anyways. It's been an interesting string of events this weekend. First off, on Friday on my way to work I called in to the radio station and won 4 tickets to the Purdue/Ball State game on Saturday. Once I finally got to work, late on my first full day, how bad is that? Anyways, I got there and basically spent the rest of the day trying to get rid of them, cause I really didn't' want to go. You would be amazed how hard it is to get rid of 4 tickets in the 4th row on the 40 yard line to a Purdue game with only one days notice. I finally sold them though. Anyways then I spent the rest of the weekend with Erin. I don't' know why but lately I feel like all I do is rush around and try to get everything done in a short amount of time. The thing is, I don't have much to do really. I dunno why I just feel overwhelmed and frustrated, but I have no idea why. This week is lining up to be a crazy week again, but again, I have no idea why I just feel like I'm totally too busy for my own good or something. I dunno. Today was good, I've done nothing mostly. I mean I got up Arden 1230 and then sat around until 4ish, got dressed, washed the car and sat back down. I studied a bit, but really didn't do much of anything. I think later tonight I'm going to head to a friends house and chill for bit. Last night on the way home from Erin's I talked to Emmy most of the way home, fixing Dave's puter again. It's cool I don't mind really, got to catch up and stuff too.
The other new thing that's going on is now I am the proud owner of fuzznik.com, it's not up yet, I'm still working on the design but it's coming. To anyone out there who is looking for a new email account let me know and I'll get you the details on your very own @fuzznik.com address, probably for free too. Anyways I gotta get some more nothing done. Catch you all later

Yard Rash 3: The electric lemonade stand

Wow, that was my only bit of creativity today. Let me tell you about this weekend though, quite possibly one of the coolest in a long time. Labor is the last day of summer, I mean that's it, the first days of school and the last days of hot... er something like that... anyways on Friday, Jake and I went over to Purdue to Adam and Josh's to chill... good times all around. Spit is really loud falling two stories on to a foosball table...
Saturday I went straight to Erin's to chill; she totally surprised the crap out of me and yet again proved to be the greatest. She got us tickets to symphony on the prairie and made us a picnic of fried chicken and all the trimmings. We sat out all evening under a clear sky and listened to the River City Brass Band play all our favorite tunes. The good was great, the music, was great and Erin is truly spectacular. It’s great to have someone who just surprises you at every turn. Sunday I chilled at home most of the day and then that night I went down to Erin's and we took Ali back to Anderson, I never realized that Anderson was that close. Too bad we missed a turn and ended up taking the long way home, we got there though.
Monday was Chris' party. Imagine this: Electric Lemonade, Four-wheelers, and a knee board. Yeah it was probably the coolest thing in the world and then we added a ramp in the yard and it got better. I got yard rash from flipping off the thing and actually I think I have a huge lump still on my leg from one of my "landings". Some old friends showed up to, unfortunately Erin couldn't be there cause she had family stuff to take care of. But it was good to see Josh and Auds again for sure. Yesterday was my first day working at PSF. I'm now a CAD designer, designing countertops for PSF. It's pretty cool really, I mean I get to be kind of creative, my boos is awesome, and I get to do some tech support stuff while I’m there on their equipment so there's always something to do. Learning CAD is going to be the hard part, but I’ve already picked up a bunch already and I think I’ll do fine. Anyway I’m ending this... it's long as it is...

Stupid Modest Mouse

Float on is stuck in my head, I hate that song but more and more it's growing on me. I'm at school just waiting on Bio to start. Brougth my laptop today so that I can watch a movie while I sit there adn do nothign for the most part. I swear, this guy just talks and talks and talks.... most of us just sit there and do nothing. I don't even know why I'm sitting here writing this cause honestly I have nothing to say. I'm outta here not even going to use spell check, cause I just dont' care

Another day I guess...

It's Monday... I'm at school... Did I mention it's Monday? Yeah, so I'm bored, I've called about 4 people trying to find someone to talk to just to pass the time, instead I'm here in the computer lab, Farking. One thing that interested me was that Indian Larry died. I usually stay up way too late most nights watching some kind of Discovery Channel thing where someone is building a motorcycle or crazy car, Indian Larry was the man. He was covered in tattoos and always made things the way that he wanted them made, never the way that they were "supposed" to be made. He was a free spirit for sure. This week promises to be as grilling as ever... Last week of working at MMIMS, another week of school and juggling life in general... I wanted this all to happen though, so it's cool I guess.
It's amazing how life can take unexpected turns in a matter of days, your priorities change, your group changes, your schedule for everyday changes... Craziness.
Well I've got to go call Erin now, I really just wanted to kill some time and tell everyone about Indian Larry... later...
btw... When I stand there and don't say a word to you, even when you're trying to have a conversation, that means that I don't' want to talk to you, it's nothing personal, I just think you're psycho and I don't' want to associate with you... Think this is you? Probably not, as the person that I'm referring to would never read this and if they do, stop.

It's the weekend!... (thank goodness)

It's 4 o'clock on Friday which means that the weekend is only an hour away. I can’t' for it to be quite honest, things have been so hectic this week; I just need a break and some relaxation time. I'm going to down to Castleton tonight with Erin, dinner and that kind of thing, should be good. The last few days have been ok, just dizzying really. School is going fine right now, HW is still easy and it's all review for the most part, I’m still just trying to figure out how my professors work so I know how much I need to study and all that. Catch you later...

A milestone...!

This is my 250th post on blogger... You'd think I'd have something worthwhile to post, alas I don't. Good day all

School...

I'm sitting here at school because basically I have nothing to do for another 3 hours. I have stuff to do but since the labs here suck I can’t' do what I really need to do so I will be forced to do Math. It's not that I hate math or anything like that; I just would rather do other things. School so far has been ok, nothing too exciting, same gang, and some new faces too. I don’t' know how I'm going to keep everything in balance though, between Erin, school, and work it's going to be hard, but I'm sure everything will work out. I think tonight I'm going to go over to Chris' and chill for a bit. Good times. Thursday I['m going to do my charity work for the month, actually it's more like for the summer, I'm doing a trivia bowl for the Literacy Coalition, fun fun fun. I'm ready to move on work is getting harder and harder to come by at the office, it's time to move on and do something else. My mind is going 90MPH right now and I have no idea why. Anyway I guess I should run out to my car and get my math book and do something constructive with an otherwise boring afternoon. Oh yeah and it's going to storm like a mug anytime now. BTW, those of you out there who have blogs and such, post a comment with your link and I’ll update mine, and those of you who have one that you don’t' update, die... Ha Ha Ha! Seriously though I get really tired of just clicking through my daily blog links only to find that no one has updated. Of course I'm one to talk, I havent' updated nearly enough this summer but I was busy, you are all here for my entertainment, entertain me dangit! I'm thinking about purchasing a new domain name so that when/if I ever actually start my web/tech side gig I will have a legit name to go under instead of just my real name domain. Sure it's ok to own yourname.com but I want something original, unfortunately as you can see by the design of this blog, I am unoriginal and lazy, but hey what are you going to do. I have to find some plans for this weekend, I have to do some studying, but that shouldn’t' take long and it's too early yet in the school year to really worry about anything for a test or whatever.

Preflight jitters?

It's late. Too late. Too late for me to be up and on the computer. I don't know why but I just can't sleep tonight. Is it the fact that tomorrow I will not only start my semi-senior year of college? Or is it because I am going to give my 2 weeks notice at work? I have all these thoughts running through my head right now about what tomorrow and the coming weeks will be like. It's scary sure, but I don't think that's it, I think I'm just ready to get it started and back into a routine again. I'm going to be so busy, I don't know how I'm going to cope with it all, work, school, Erin, friends... I'm going to be stressed that's for sure but I'll manage some how.
Tonight was interesting to say the least. The plans that I was going to make never presented themselves so I went and made plans of my own. Knee-boarding behind a four-wheeler on freshly cut grass is awesome... until you fall off. That huts a bit. Next time we'll wait for snow before trying such an idiotic task.
I'm sitting here in front of the computer, the only sounds I hear are the whirring of the computer fan and I only see the light cast from the monitor on my quickly wandering hands over the keyboard. The end of one thing and the beginning of some many new. things are going to be different this year that's for sure; everything that happened last year drew lines that I don' think will ever be broken and the habits of the summer are likely to live on and on. I have to be up in 7 hours... why don't I just go to bed... of course I would lay there and toss and turn, but at least that's getting rest right... perhaps I'll go watch some TV and just relax

It's been a while...

Summer is over. In less than 24 hours I'll be back in class. I'm still not totally ready but I'll get there sometime today I'm sure. I need to go find a new backpack I think, I saw one the other day, I'll go check it out today and maybe buy it. I still have an old one though and most likely I'll end up using that one for a while. The one thing that I hate about school already is that I have homework and I haven't even been to the first class yet. Stupid Bio prof. There have been some interesting developments over the past few days but I'm going to wait a few more days before I tell the world really, I need to get all of my bases covered first. Anyways though I think I'm going to write more later, I just wanted to get something up.

The scream was stolen today. How sad, I love that painting.
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Monotony begats monotony

I can't wait for school to start, I know that is probably the last thing I should be saying, but really, the summer is done for me. It was a great one, filled with bon fires, weird love triangles, new adventures in rocketry, concerts, and countless nights of stars and the moon. I loved it, but now I'm done. Work is becoming more of a chore now, money is so bad that I can't even begin to think of how I'm going to pay for stuff this fall... I did a budget the other night... You don't even want to know. I'm ready for something new again. A new job could be on the horizon, I still have my reservations about it, but we'll see. I've just fallen in a rut and need to get out of it.

I don't even have that much to bog about anymore really, I usually have at least one interesting thing to say...

I guess this is it, I will be glad when school starts because then maybe the group will get back together again. When summer started we had all these wonderful plans and stuff, hardly any of it happened, people just got too busy or something. We haven't hung out as a crowd in at least a month, I miss that, we always had fun even when we did nothing. Maybe with school starting and everyone back on the same schedule we can get back to hangin out again... I should get back to work...

A little geek humor...
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Wasting away the day.....

I love the weekends. Really... I just wasted an entire day today. Got up around 11, sat around til noonish, made lunch. Then I washed the car, got some new Wax as you Dry stuff, kinda like it actually, made the car shiny. Works for me. After that I sat around for a bit and just lounged. Around 2 I took a shower and headed out to Erin's. From there we just sat around and chilled out in front of the TV. i cooked dinner for her and her mom, chilled in front of the TV. Now I'm chilling in front of the TV on the laptop, whiel Erin sulks after seeign her cell bill, I'm kinda doing the same... You don't want to know. I'm flat broke. Not sure what else we're doing tonight, but it's surely said that it won't be anything that involves money. At least a lot of money anyways. I need to get out of here...
Matt will be home in a month... can't wait... miss the guy. Miss the garage time and the times we go out and just hang... we don't do anything but talk to people and just chill. I gotta go...

A quick post and then off to Erin's...

So what do you think of the new layout? I like it. Sure it's canned, but I spiced it up a bit on the sidebar. Not done yet, but a change nonetheless. Tonight is a bumming night. After just chilling last night most of the evening and then getting to bed early, I think I'm going to try to do it again. Work was Ok today, nothing exciting to speak of. Spent all day playing with spyware, check out the security blog for an article on that soon. (shameless plug).

I guess I'll get off to Erin's now... smell ya later

Long overdue again....

It's been too long. OH well I'm just going to write some junk and get off here... other stuff to do.

I have a new blog started!

This doesn't meant that I will stop writing here but since I'm constantly telling people about computer stuff I've decided to start writing it down. This page will likely not change a whole lot for the time being, but I hope to have it grow over time. Check it out here.
-Money management is not my forte. I wish I coudl tell you all what kind of financial straits I am in right now, but I can't. Just know that things are bad and they will likely get worse over the next few months... In that same regard, others seem to be good at it and think that... well I'd better leave that one alone for now.
-Erin and I are wonderful. I coudlnt' be happier. Life is good.
-School starts in less than a month
-Matt comes home in less than two.
-I need a new job.
If you want to know more, ask me in person. I'm just not in the mood right now.

This is my proof for God's existence...
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Planning the fantasy; living the dream

I really must say that things all in all are pretty dang good. I'm flat broke, I'm about two shakes from leaving my job and finding something else, and school starts in about a month. Life is going well, really it is. I'm stressed, but not so much now, things are just floating along again, and that’s how I think I like them.
I spoke to Matt today, good things. Heh. He's doing well and should be home for his R&R in about 7 weeks. I'm excited to see him and catch up on some "garage time". He's been talking to Ali a lot lately, so I think that's keeping him sane. It's good.
Erin and I had a great weekend really, for having a bad day, it went pretty well really. Friday we just chilled out, made a Papa Murphy's pizza and just watched movies. Good things. Papa Murphy's has great pizza, if there is one near you be sure to check it out.  On Saturday we started out going to the Butterfly Gardens in Indy at the Zoo. That didn't happen, it looked like rain and I just don't think that either one of us were really in the mood. We went to Broad Ripple and then over to the Fashion Mall, good things. The only thing I bought was a new shirt for church that night, since I had something on mine from lunch/breakfast/the day before. We got back to her house and crashed for a bit, then off to church. I'm kind of starting to like her church, but the sheer size of it is still a bit intimidating for me really. I'll get used to it.
After that we headed to Street Dance. Quite possibly the coolest thing I've seen done in a smallish city in a long time. Kokomo has Ribfest, but I think this is better. We had fun, did a little dancing, ate a ton of food. Good things.
Yesterday was the first day of my boss being gone for 3-4 months at a contract site, this means that basically everything falls on me now. I'm the main point of contact for just about everything, it's cool I guess to have the responsibility but I don’t' know if I really want to have the stress and whatnot. We'll see how it goes.
Tonight it's off to the circus in Peru... Jake has a gig on the courthouse steps; Erin and I are heading up to see him and just chill for a bit... I gotta get back in my workout routine...
Anyways, time for lunch... catch you all later 

Woo hoo

OK so I got this letter from IUK the other day thinking it was a bill, I just kinda opened it and wanted to know how much I would owe. Instead it's a congratulatory letter telling me that I got a scholarship for the next two semesters, not a full scholarship, but it will definitely help things along that's for sure. For those of you that know, this is a much needed blessing.
Things are pretty great really. Went to Michael W Smith and Mercy Me concert last night, a great time. First concert I've been to where people actually sat down. Weird, but cool nonetheless. I'm just happy right now again. Just need to keep the peace and smile now and then. I'm off... more later or something...

I am stressed...

That's pretty much the only thing I can come up with to explain what I feel like right now. I really don't' know why, well I guess I do but still it's not something that would usually make me feel like this. I mean sometimes I get a little worked up about stuff and then I can blow it off, but basically for the past few days or so I've been like totally overloaded with "stuff." I don't' even know what it is that's really bothering me to be quite honest. I mean yeah friends, work, school, and family have all been a little hectic lately but ya know... I can normally put on a happy face and go on about stuff. I dunno honestly I've had a lot of fun lately with everyone I mean overall at least. We went to the fair last night, going to the Michael W Smith concert tomorrow. I mean all in all everything is ok, but its' the little things that are just eating away at me. I wonder if this is all coming on because I've pretty much ignored this thing in the last little while and just haven't' taken any time for me or something. Hmmm... Something to think about I guess. Anyways though, last weekend was awesome, just like home. I mean really, wow, I've never been so... comfortable and just well at home. It was good, I'm happy for what I have and for what I will have. For those of you, who feel the need to be uncomfortable with it, kiss off. You can't' be two-faced for that long and expect me not to find out about it. I heard what you said and who you said it to, some day the truth will come out and I'll make sure that your humiliation is much greater than mine. You've done worse than I did, and I can prove it. An explosion is brewing, and even though you're not totally responsible, you will probably bear the brunt of it... learn to deal or get out.

Technical Difficulties...

Sorry to say that the site will be up and down for the next few days while i clean out some old junk... It should all be back to normal by Friday night...

Another Wonderful Weekend...

I must say that the last few weeks have been some of the most amazing ever, it's finally summer and we're finally doing stuff. Lets see where to start, Friday we went out to dinner and then over to Kyle's nothing too exciting, but fun nonetheless. On Saturday I watched my friend sell his soul to the Guitar Center in Castleton for an amp. A nice one, but holy crap, it was freakin' expensive. Then Erin and I went out to see Harry Potter with her cousins, good times. Stupid window. Then we went to the hot tub and just relaxed and stuff, parents made us dinner, can't be a good bloody steak. After watching my first John Wayne movie, I finally went home. Sunday we went back down to Castleton, to the Mongolian BBQ. After figuring out that downtown was a bust and that we were pretty much bored, I was finally excited to see the fireworks. You see to some people the fireworks are just that fireworks. But to me they actually mean something. I feel like it's actually important to see them each year, I can't' explain why or what, but this year with Matt gone made it all the more important to me. He's called a few times lately, all appears to be well, he'll be home in like 60 days or something and I honestly can't wait.
You know what else was great about this weekend? The fact that I had yesterday off too! Didn't do anything. Well anything important anyways, just played some golf and washed the car. It was pretty cool. It's nice to be able to turn off your phone and just kick back for the day. We went lifting last night.... holy hell. I didn't' lift that much, but we played ball before that and I don't' think I've ever sweated so much in my life. The crazy thing is that I think I actually lost 2 lbs in the process. I weighed myself on Saturday at 172 and now I'm 170. Of course I realize that 2 pounds could be from the fact that I didn't eat before I got weighed or something, but still, it's cool. Now it's time to bulk up.
I dunno what is going on now, but I am just freakin' happy all the time. Erin has really just came into my life and made everything wonderful. This weekend is going to be great too; we're going to the Dunes to see her friends and stuff. I can't wait.
Sometimes just waiting is the best thing you can do, out with the old, in with the new. Thanks for all you've done, perhaps in the future we can help each other again.

Woo hoo

I just got my grade from L350... A-.. but that's not the great part. The best part is, I'm on 3 hours away form finally being a senior.... of course I'm like so far from graduation it's not even funny, but at least I'll be a senior... a 5th year senior... wo..wait.. er... crap... back to work

I should have wrote this before...

Oh well though I've been amazingly busy the last few days with everything going on with life and all. Well I guess the biggest news is that Erin and I are together, it's been a whole week now. Things are great. She's meet the family and can tolerate them and her family is awesome too. I just cant' get enough of her. She's one of those people that just fits so well, I'm falling hard and fast again. Who known what will happen, but I'm loving every minute of it.
The other cool stuff that's been going on is pretty much all of last weekend, what started with a cool dinner at Mongolian Grill and just got better from there. If you've never been to one you must go, they are the coolest! Erin's dad was cool enough to take us all out to dinner and stuff, then we bopped around Castleton for a bit. Then it was off to Chris' Bachelor party!... heh... to my friend: Thanks for not puking in my car, it was definitely a great time.
On Saturday it was my birthday, heh, and Chris and Terra's wedding, a great time. I'm glad the two of them finally got everything worked out. You guys are a great couple and the wedding was spectacular, CRCs included. :) After that it was out to dinner with the old gang, well most of it, of course we had new faces too. Jake bought dinner for Erin and I as a birthday gift, a very cool thing to do. After that we did something, I just can't remember what it was really, oh yeah, we went to Ambyr's... After getting home at like 330AM and staying up till 4 talking to Erin I was totally dead for the party at my house on Sunday.
Everyone came over for Mexican food that g-ma made. It was amazing. It's good to have friends that you can invite over to your house and not be afraid of what they might say or do. In the evening Erin and I went out to the lake and just enjoyed the night. I went lifting with the guys and just had a good time all weekend basically. This weekend is looking like it's going to be as busy as ever too. The Fourth is definitely going to be a good time and now that I may not have to work on Monday I think it'll be even better. I'll write more tonight, but I just had to get some of this down while I was thinking about it.
Of course I should say that there still are problems with people out there, some people just can't be happy for those of us who have finally found someone. I'm not ashamed at all of what I've done and what I will do, it's a real and good thing. Be happy for me or butt out.

It's all good

You should listen to: If I Ain't Got You -Alicia Keys

Wow… that's really all I can say right now. Things over the past few days have just been absolutely amazing. It all started on Sunday afternoon when I decided to meet Annie in town to exchange her cell phone. Of course, we got there too late and they were closed but the cool thing was she brought along her friend Erin. There were the usual pleasantries and such, no big deal. Then we decided to go to Meijer… that's where everything began to change. After Meijer we ended up at Annie's house, just to look at some pictures…. Let me just cut to the chase her since I need to get to work; I ended up inviting Erin to DMB. We had the most amazing time together. We've hung out pretty much all the time ever since. Things are good now. She's someone that I normally wouldn't' date, she's just not the type that I usually go for and honestly, that's probably the best thing about her. She's probably more of what I need than I've been looking for. There's so much I can say about her right now, but since I have to get to work, I should probably cut this short and leave it up to those of you who actually know me to ask me about her and everything that's gone on. I'm off to work….

An amazing weekend!

This weekend was by far one of the best I've had in a long long time. First off Friday, I went out with Bethany and got my massage and just chilled with her at the mall. Then we partied at Kyle's, nothing too big or anything. Basically just 7 of us chilling out for a while. Good times. But Saturday is really when all the fun began. I drove to U of I in the afternoon, met up with an old friend turned new again. We went to Circle Centre, shopped, went to the Formula 1 thing on the Circle, nothing exciting there. Then we went back and tried to go to club on the northside, it was a little to ghetto for us. So we went back to her place and just chilled for a while. We danced a bit, chilled a bit and then finally got to bed around 5ish. Good lord, a great night. Definitely something I want to go do again. She's gonna be our new Indy buddy. Sunday just topped everything off too. I got home around noon. Ate diner with the fam. Then I slept until about 430. I was so exhausted. Come to think of it, I still am. Anyways
I had to meet Annie at Verizon so I could give her the phone I found on eBay. Of course, Verizon closes at 5 and we got there at 505. Grr... She had been gone all week at some wedding or whatever but she brought her new friend Erin with her. Heh. Erin is a cool girl. Anyways we trucked it over to Annie's to look at pics from the wedding, of course when we got there Annie wouldn't' show them to me but I got to know Erin a little better. :) So anyways I go home, I did some HW that badly needs to be finished and then I headed over to Chris' to rescue him. Right after I got there though, I got a VM from Erin that she was in Peru at East End. Drove over there pretty fast. We hung out for a bit then headed out to Mac to lift. She played some ball with us. OK really to be honest I don't know what I'm thinking here... I mean everything just kind of happened and it was really cool. It's all in the eyes probably. I dunno...
Tonight is DMB. I'm freakin excited cause I'm goin to go get Erin a ticket at lunch today so we'll have 7 people with us. woot! It's supposed to rain tonight which will totally suck, but hey, DMB and a ton of friends, what else could you ask for right?
Anyways I should get back to work, time is money or something like that.

Happy Birthday Blog

It's been a year now since I started writing here. Looking back it's been pretty amazing at all the changes that have occurred in my life. I've gone through 3 jobs, a few girls, changed friends a few times and gone back to school. Among other things. I feel like I've let this thing slide off again. I've just been so busy, but not busy at all, all at the same time. between school, work and everything else I just don't have much time to myself, and the time I do have, I sleep. I don't mind it really, I need to stay busy or I freak basically.
Went to a friend's wedding last weekend, good times really. Met some people that I hadn't seen in a long time and I'm actually going to hang out with one of them this weekend, if you're in Indy on Saturday call me, I'll tell ya where the party is. It's weird how things change over time, people that you barely knew then, now you feel like you've known them forever.
I heard from Matt eh other day, he's doing well. Said it's hot as crap over there and all that, but for the most part he's doing OK.
It's late and I haven't been getting that much sleep lately for some reason so I guess I should go t bed, but I thought I should post something since I haven't in a long time and since this thing is 1 year old now. Still looking for a new domain though...
This was supposed to be our week...
I saw you from four years ago just the other day. I see you everywhere, and yet you're still gone.

Dash... You rock

Thanks, the last month has been awesome, you've always been there. Thanks for the hookup and all the long talks til 3am. You always have the answers, even when I don't like them. ~Superman

PS everyone listen to the song I'm listening to right now, amazing. Be proud of our boys and girls over there.

Contest!

You should listen to: Dont tell me -Avril Lavigne

Ok here's the skinny, think of a new domain name for me. Anything you'd like, something that will be unique but not too long www.thisisthelongestnameicouldthinkof.com is not cool. www.mycoolsite.com is nice. I want somethiing that is not my name, not stupid, and just kinda sounds cool Fuzznick has already been shot down. Whoever comes up with the best name (judged by me) will get free email on the site for as long as I own it and keep it up. Basically if you've always wanted a cool email address, let me know the domain you want it at, if i like it, i'll buy the name and give you the email address. Keep it clean and leave your ideas in the comments.

Dash... You rock!

You should listen to: Letters From War -Mark Schultz

Thanks, the last month has been awesome, you've always been there. Thanks for the hookup and all the long talks til 3am. You always have the answers, even when I don't like them. ~Superman
PS everyone listen to the song I'm listening to right now, amazing. Be proud of our boys and girls over there.

Psych sucks

Don't you hate when the reverse doesn't work and you end up getting ran over? I did. This weekend was probably one of the weirdest I've had in a while really. And that's saying a lot really. Meet another old friend today, actually one of my best old friends. He's getting married at the end of the summer to an even old friend. Its crazy ya know? She's starting her career, getting married; he's almost out of school. I'm not either. Weird. The weekend was interesting, yes, that's where I was. Crackers was cool. A short night I guess, but cool just the same, I still didn't get home still almost 330, but hey that's why you have a ton of friends, so you can call anyone anytime and always find something to do. Saturday was a little more interesting, nothing happened, but boy were some stories told to me that I just couldn't' believe. It's amazing how people change; I wonder how I've changed over the last few years. I don't' care particularly. New girls, new friends, it's getting to be an interesting soap opera of a life really... whatever, time to lift... well get gas and then lift... I'll write more later I guess...

Wiki Wiki Whack!

I dunno, lame title. Anyways, I have a Wiki check it out. Add something, a place for anyone out there to add anything you want quickly and easily. Just post something will ya?

A long weekend that ended too soon

I’m sitting here realizing that the weekend is nearly over. It’s been quite the eventful weekend really. Party on Friday was rockin’ tons of people that we didn’t even realize would show up and just a good time all around. Definitely something that we’ll have to do again… probably should take a break from it though and let everyone recharge a bit. Then on Saturday I played golf a bit, didn’t shoot too bad but bad enough. Saturday after we got everything ready for Sunday I went to bed early. Then at 4AM yesterday started… What a day. First of all we got there at about 7… the race normally doesn’t start till 11 anyways. We walked around a bit in the infield. Actually ran into some people that I knew. Weird to see guys from the old IUK crowd. Finally we got to our seats, pretty good seats actually but then the waiting began…. Indiana gave us a taste of its wonderful weather. First they started about 2 hours late then there was a delay then they got going again. Finally after all the caution laps and stuff the race was basically called at 630 as the skies opened. While we were walking back they told us that there was a tornado around and that we should hurry. I got to the car totally soaked, changed clothes and started driving… We were going to stop in Carmel and eat, but with the weather being so bad we just decided to drive home, as were heading down 26 they said that there was a tornado about 10 miles behind us. Not cool. We went to Annie’s aunt’s house… chilled there while things blew over, it sounds like they really did here at home; parts of Peru are wiped out…. So sad. Really it is. Today I got up late, played some more golf.

Things have been different lately. Some old things are just not working anymore. I don’t’ really know what’s happening with life right now.  I dunno tomorrow starts another week, lifting tonight… I’m outta here.

I'm rebuilding my puter tonight...

So tonight after being totally frustrated with the way that my computer was running, I deleted everything and started over... Then I went and lifted and played some ball with the guys. I should have known it wouldn't go smooth. I installed Windows 2000 instead of XP. So now I'm sitting here on the laptop waiting on XP to get done installing again... grr.. Anyways, we lifted.. I'm pathetic but that's ok, I want to be able to bench my body weight (170) by Labor Day. Only 60 pounds to add. That should be do-able. Right? Anyways on to other stuff. Today was really tiring. I worked all day of course, a tech didn't show this morning so that threw everything out of kilter. Is kilter even a word? Hmm... must be a midwest thing prolly. Anyways I was cleaning out old stuff tonight and came across an old email. You know those emails that you write and you probably never should have? Yeah, found one of those, thank God I didn't send it. Maybe someday I'll send it just for fun... Just to get a reaction more than anything. The weekend finished up pretty good actually. The fire was good, I'm rested... It's all good. Ahh,... Only 5 more days to the race. I can't wait... I'm ready for something new and exciting. I'm sending Matt a box tomorrow. It weighs about 20lbs... Postage is going to be unreal, but I gotta help my boy out. He's defending everything that we love and take for granted. I hope all of you out there will say a prayer for him and his unit tonight. He's having a rough time over there, seeing guys shot and stuff... Hang a yellow ribbon for the 221st. G'night all

I hate Mondays

So I'm sitting here at work right now. Yes that's right at work. I should be in Logansport right now setting up a new system for a doctor's office. Instead, my lead tech is in bed sick today and instead of getting things done so that tomorrow I could play catch up; now I'm playing catch up when I really don't have that much to catch up on yet. We have a lot of work to get done around here in the next few weeks and any small glitch is going to just snowball for us.

Last night we had a party/campfire at Jake's. Good times. Do you realize how hard it is to catch a wet foam football in the dark? Dang near impossible. Anyways though the fire was cool, we had some friends there and it was just a cool night. I had my doubts about whether we were even going to have it actually, it stormed almost all day. Then around 730 the clouds broke up and we had a beautiful night under the stars (with a little lightning in the distance). This week promises to be as hectic and stressful as ever. We've got to get ready for the race on Saturday, I think there might be something going on on Friday night. I've got class too, crap, HW, forgot. Anyway though I think things are finally getting better with everyone and that we will all be ok. Some day can't come soon enough though.

Notice the new site...

OK it's not that new I guess but you should all notice that the new address is just http://www.michaelbollman.com/blog now you can leave off the .htm thing that you had before. I updated some stuff today. Let me know if you have problems

Sam on TTY

So the last few days have been cool actually I think for me. Work is going pretty good, I've been in Noblesville and Logan for the past few days so I cant' say that I've been bored by sitting at my desk. As a matter of fact yesterday I got a call from a lady who had a man on the phone who was using TTY. Now I've never really known anyone who was deaf or that used TTY so this was my first brush with a call like this. Basically it goes like this, they introduce themselves through a reader basically. Someone actually has the job to just sit there and read what other people are writing to someone, then they typed whatever I said back. Same was looking for a new HD. Usually a simple enough request but he wanted a specific one that we didn't carry, one that he wanted by today. That's just not possible, I think he was pretty mad too, he hung up on me. Kinda rude considering it took almost 20 minutes on the phone to find out what he wanted and then for me to confirm it.... whatever though... I'm moving on.
Last night we went to Kevin Pollack's show at Crackers. This man is hilarious. He does impersonations and just that will kill you. Chris Walken and Jack are probably the best that I've ever seen. Went to Macaroni's before that, pretty cool I must say. Got stuffed that's for sure. I dunno what else I can really say right now. I have a ton to do today, my mind is all scattered about... I'm going to go eat and then get started on what I have to do today.

Email posts

So now I can post to this thing via email. Possibly I'll update more. Blogger has changed their site around quite a bit. New changes coming soon.

You don't know how it feels...

The last few days have been some of the weirdest I think I've ever had. First off, I've been hanging out with friends that I haven't seen in years. One is getting married really soon and although we've talked off and on, we really haven't done anything since my first go around at college. We went out to play pool and then to dinner, good times I suppose. Things never change really, but then again they do. Then I've been hanging out with an old good friend. Not much to say other than I'm glad we're friends again. Then there's the other person that I haven't talked to in a long time that suddenly I can talk to again. She's great at just listening to me and making me laugh, or at least see the right perspective on things. Things will never be how they were. That's ok, I don't want that, I want them to just be good.
The other big news is that the girl is no more. I don't' really know if there ever was a girl, but essentially things just didn't work out. It's hard to move on. It's hard not to be selfish and keep everyone else from having a good time. I'll be ok, and everything will be fine. I told myself and everyone else that no matter what happens it'll all be ok and I'm going to make sure that it is. Too much is riding on this summer to let it go bad on something stupid. There are still issues to resolve, but time will work those out.
On a brighter note I do have tickets to the Indy 500 in two weeks. It should be a good time, we got great seats. Near pit road, just off of 4 with a good view of 3, 4, front straight and the entrance to 1. I've got my DMB tickets too. B is going with me, she's a blast, I'm sure we'll all have fun. Never been with 6 people before to a concert so it should be interesting. I guess I'm just too impatient lately. Things never happen fast enough for me lately. I just can't seem to wait on people to make up their minds or for days to get here when we are doing stuff.
Like right now it's almost 1am on Wednesday. I'm dying for the weekend to get here. I have no plans really whatsoever, just ready to see what happens basically.
I don't' really know what else to write right now. I guess I should get to bed. To everyone else out there reading, I'll try to keep this up a little better.
BTW to anyone out there that wants it: I have info for Matt's email and mailing address. If you want it, email me or leave a comment and I'll get it to you. He needs letters so even if you don't know him well, drop him a line. A soldier always appreciates a letter; Matt said he'll write anyone and everyone that writes him. I'm sending a care package soon as well, if you have anything you'd like to send, let me know and I'll get it to him. He needs anything to read, personal toiletries, snacks (nothing that will melt in 110 degree heat), anything else that would help make the next 14 months fly by for him. Thanks all

...is hard on the knees

Its all my fault. I did exactly what I told myself I wouldn't do again. Things are going to work out one way or another. I'm sure that everythgin that happened last night was for the best, last night just wasn't the best night for it to happen. I thought I saw the signs taht were leading my one day, I just missed a turn and fell off a cliff. Maybe in the next few days/weeks it'll all figure itself out. Stress is something that I really don't want right now, I'm good at helping other people deal with it, just not myself.
It's weird though, I feel that I've been in this exact spot before, all the same stuff was happeneing, and all the same stuff did happen. What should I do now? I let myself go back before and everything was great... for a while, what will happen now? It's time to get to work... more to come as it unfolds.

Alright I should be in bed

Soundtrack of my life: Dare You To Move - Switchfoot

But tonight was a great night, thanks everyoen for a great cookout, old times come back and join with the new and make everything fun again. I just wanted to post this thign really... It says it's goin to be 88 tomorrow... it was like 70 somethign today... that's a huge jump. Its suppose to storm tomororw too.... should be another interesting night... I'm off to bed... Day off tomorrow. I'll be around.

Its Over... kinda

I'm done with finals! I had 3 today and let me tell you I'm sick of taking tests now. They all went pretty well I think. I know that I passed them all; we'll just have to see how much they affect my final grade though. If things stay the way they are I will get a 3.5 for the semester and bring my overall up to like a 3.4. Geekish I know, but I'm trying to get through school now and do well at it. Not like last time. I'm trying to get a waiver for one class right now, so hopefully I'll be even closer than I thought to graduation. Work is going well right now, busy, but good. I am going to start full time next week, I'll take a few afternoons off now and then, but mostly I'm going to be there everyday all day. This weekend is still up in the air, I wish everyone was off like one day and we could all go out like old times, but everyone is busy right now it's really hard to get everyone at the same place and at the same time. I have Thursday all day off, I dunno what I'm going to do really, but I'm sure I'll find something to do.

School sucks!!!

Actually it's more like the bookstore that really sucks. This semester I spent about $400 on 6 books. These books have been very heavy to carry to and from my classes while only actually using them a few times. I knew that when book buy-backs came around I would not recieve much for them, but today when I tried to sell them all back I was completely and utterly appalled. $12!!! They wouldn't buy back 4 of them at all and only offered me $8 and $4 for the others. How retarded is that? I'm fuming mad right now, I need to buy books for the summer, and I have no money to do that with right now. So nwo I'm going to go study for my psych test (wouldn't buy that book back, overstock) and then I'll be off to my Soc. test (wouldn't buy that book back because they aren't using it anymore). So yeah... i'm off. Leave some comments about your book buy-back experiences....

3 More to go...

Soundtrack of my life: Walking in Memphis - Marc Cohn

It's getting to be that way again, where I only write when I feel the desperate need to write something to keep this thing fresh. I am getting ready to head to Kokomo to take my last 3 finals for the year in a few. I should have studied a lot more instead of going out last night but it was a cool night anyways. Sorry about the marshmallow in your hair.... Throwing flaming marshmallows off a coat hanger is never a good idea... The past few days have been both hectic and wonderful at the same time. Looks like my friend might have found someone, she's a very cool girl, and I hope it works out well. We're all going out tomorrow night so we shall see. I took my first final on Saturday morning, business law, what fun. The good news is I got an 88% on the test which means I get an A for the class.... Go me. Now if I can just do the same things in my other classes I have s shot at actually getting that 3.5 that I've been wanting... Today will be the day to find out. The thing that sucks is one prof will grade my test while I'm standing there and the others will take a week if not longer to grade it so I wont' know until I actually get my grades in the mail as to how well I've done.... Anyways I should get going, I might write more later today about everything else that's going on with life.

I'm done!

Soundtrack of my life: Burlap To Cashmere - Basic Ins -

OK not totally but I just finished my 6 page Philo paper finally. Woo hoo! The only thing that I have left to do is take my finals, and study for them obviously. I'm excited that I'm one week from done though. Things have been really good lately. Communication is the key to everything. I went to Bible study tonight, Proverbs 27, found out that I'm probably a horrible person as it turns out, but there are things that I am doing right so it's all good. I have to go to 3 out of 4 classes tomorrow, should be a breeze really... Can't think of any reason why I should go at all other than just to find out what's going to be on my finals. The good news also is that I'm doing really well this semester, might bring my 3.23 up to a 3.5 after all... woo hoo again. Anyway it's late... I really should be in bed... My head is fried.

Rainy Days and Mondays....

I wrote that in Psych the other day... I was bored and just started writing. I don't' know what everything means really, or even why it's slightly poetry and slightly not. I just wrote it, and I wanted everyone to see it. It's far too late to go any farther... I have to be at work in less than 7 hours.

I've become what I once was, doing what I one did. Now I am at the same crossroads again, will history repeat itself? Leaving the mediocre to receive the great? Remember before when the OK became like a swan, once more please? The connections are amazing, the angels on the shelf, and the names in the night. Faces so strange yet so kind. Long and lonely nights may not be over yet, but they've became so much more. I fell too hard and too fast, I fell in an instant. Did I land on my feet this time, perhaps my head? A busy life in these times, but never too busy for this. I'd give it all up for one night more. Jealously rears its ugly head once more. It's not my place to say, but it hurts every time life the times before, when I couldn't' do anything about it. I don't' think I've moved past it all quite yet, but I'm waiting on nothing, that something I wonder if I ever even had. No more games, don't' have to worry about that, I still I play those same games, just wanting it all back. No, I've found something new, a rocky road to start, and some things to clean up. Now it's all good, that is if it ever begins. Stars and Songs are ruined, burned on me always. A Lullaby that was once ours now belongs to no one.

Dazed and Confused

It's been something of a long weekend. Friday we went out just to chill, ate some good and then went home basically... Nothing too big. Saturday I spent most of the day just chillin around the house and stuff... Can't say that I did much of anything really. After eating dinner at Jake's house though, we went over to Chris's and chilled with him and Terra and the PS2... good times. Then we went to Kokomo and went bowling with Annie and Kyle and Orion. At BW's later on though it seemed that basically me and Chris and Terra just reminisced about old times and just bored everyone else to death. I kind of felt bad about that part.
Things are really confusing right now and I think for the first time tonight I realized that I'm not the only one who is confused. Things happened really fast and I think it blew both of us away really. I'm happy for the most part with everything, and I hope the other person is too. We've had some great times lately, I think at least. The thing is that we are so busy with the other parts of our life that we almost don't' have to be worrying about what's going on between us. What should we do? I'm so confused myself that I can't help anyone with anything really.
I think I know what I want, can I have it please?

Please support our guys...

I read about Tillman dying today, how sad. He gave up millions of dollars and a life of luxury to go server for our country and defend the very things we take for granted everyday. My best friend is preparing to leave for Afghanistan very soon; I ask that everyone out there say a prayer for him, his unit, and all the other soldiers out there defending our freedom. Some of you may not agree with this war or its purpose, but do not defile these men's lives by disrespecting them and their mission. If you feel so strongly about it, use your vote to change the world, but remember these men are following the orders of those we have elected to make the decisions for our country. Before I go on and on let me leave you with this:

It is the Soldier, not the reporter who has given us freedom of press
It is the Soldier, not the poet who has given us freedom of speech
It is the Soldier, not the campus organizer who gives us freedom to demonstrate
It is the Soldier who salutes the flag,
who serves beneath the flag,
and whose coffin is draped by the flag,
who allows the protester to burn the flag.
-Author Unknown

Godspeed Matt